[Being alone in his thoughts was probably the worst decision Rosen could’ve made after that whole fiasco. The mind loves to play tricks on people, and he is no different. His thoughts are dark and gloomy filled with self-doubt and self-hate. He hates himself for being this weak, for this distraught by Saya’s death. Rosen was supposed to be the one to end her life, not Yuri. That is the promise he made her, the promise he failed to fulfill because of his love for her. Rosen loves Saya more than words could ever express, but his love for her is a weakness. It’s with this in mind that Rosen finds himself at an awkward crossroads.
Should he keep loving Saya despite this weakness, or should he prioritize his strength and end things before this weakness worsens? This is the question that plagues his mind as he lingers within this dark apartment. He hasn’t been outside in days, unwilling to face the scores of people who loved Saya dearly. While Rosen realizes he’s not alone in his grief, it’s difficult for him to share this grief with others. He would much rather be alone, or so he claims.
That’s not entirely true, though. Especially since he still has Ciaran with him. The large black dog was curled up on his side when it heard the knock at the door. Ciaran lets out a quiet bark before glancing at Rosen. The dog lets out a noisy whine as it hops off the sofa, making a beeline for the door. Ciaran lets out another bark when Hijikata announces himself, almost inviting the man inside but it’s Rosen who finally wakes up from his drunken stupor to open the door.]
Oh, it’s....you.
[A breathy chuckle escapes Rosen once he realizes who it was. It’s been a while since he last seen Hijikata. Since that whole memory-sharing bullshit, Rosen been making himself scarce. He doesn’t like having his memories or feelings on display. It’s embarrassing for him, especially since he often prided himself on shutting such emotions out. However, it seems he’s not as different as everyone else. Immortal or not, Rosen still feels pain and still bleeds.]
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Date: 2023-07-01 05:11 pm (UTC)Should he keep loving Saya despite this weakness, or should he prioritize his strength and end things before this weakness worsens? This is the question that plagues his mind as he lingers within this dark apartment. He hasn’t been outside in days, unwilling to face the scores of people who loved Saya dearly. While Rosen realizes he’s not alone in his grief, it’s difficult for him to share this grief with others. He would much rather be alone, or so he claims.
That’s not entirely true, though. Especially since he still has Ciaran with him. The large black dog was curled up on his side when it heard the knock at the door. Ciaran lets out a quiet bark before glancing at Rosen. The dog lets out a noisy whine as it hops off the sofa, making a beeline for the door. Ciaran lets out another bark when Hijikata announces himself, almost inviting the man inside but it’s Rosen who finally wakes up from his drunken stupor to open the door.]
Oh, it’s....you.
[A breathy chuckle escapes Rosen once he realizes who it was. It’s been a while since he last seen Hijikata. Since that whole memory-sharing bullshit, Rosen been making himself scarce. He doesn’t like having his memories or feelings on display. It’s embarrassing for him, especially since he often prided himself on shutting such emotions out. However, it seems he’s not as different as everyone else. Immortal or not, Rosen still feels pain and still bleeds.]